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[notrueking]

My, you humans are certainly fixated, aren't you? I would go back and count the number of transmissions I've seen with sex as the topic, but I don't feel like being any more disgusted than I already am.

Granted, I do know what all the fuss is about. I simply don't want to know anything about the intimate details of anyone's sex life but my own. It's mostly because the majority of you make me incredibly angry simply because you exist. I'll admit that, despite this, I find you incredibly interesting, but not in that way.

Of course, I'm of the opinion that this entire situation is really quite infuriating. Not only is the idea completely naive and idealistic, but I was also really looking forward to oblivion for a variety of reasons. Especially after being killed via the best damned fight I've ever had in my entire life. After being quite certain that gods do not not exist for my entire life, I find that shaken by the very notion that at least one of them is having a good laugh at my expense right now.

...ah. I suspect I've said too much. Before, it was always important not to say anything-but quite frankly, I don't think I care anymore.

It feels good to be frank with the world, for once.

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[strangehistorian]

What majority would that be?

[notrueking.livejournal.com]

Practically everyone I've spoken to, honestly. Though, I'll admit it's not really anything personal.

[strangehistorian]

Any reason why?

[notrueking.livejournal.com]

It's a natural predisposition. I consider humans to be beneath me, so I'm not going to start liking them any time soon.

[strangehistorian]

Well, so do I - but that doesn't mean you have to dislike them! They really always try their best, you know, bless their hearts.

[notrueking.livejournal.com]

That's part of the problem. I don't understand why they keep trying even when it's obvious they're going to fail.

[strangehistorian]

They don't always fail! Isn't there something to be said for hope and perseverance?

[notrueking.livejournal.com]

Aside from "it's naive and annoying to expect it to work every time," then no. There isn't.

[systmadmin.livejournal.com]

[CLU can definitely relate to a good portion of this, and is thankfully unaffected.]

I'd agree. The information that has been shared is more than anyone would like to know.

Why does the mere existence of others make you angry?

[notrueking.livejournal.com]

It's more that humans make me angry than anything else, although I find nonhumans with mindsets similar to humans to be just as bad.

Although, part of it probably has to do with the fact that I'm very angry by nature.

[systmadmin.livejournal.com]

[Small smile.] Mm, I see. What about humans makes you dislike them so badly? [Not that CLU doesn't understand that sentiment himself.]

[notrueking.livejournal.com]

Everything, to be honest. Though, it's their inability to accept inevitability that annoys me the most.

[systmadmin.livejournal.com]

I assume you are not a human, then?

And I don't find them to be particularly likable, either. Users are unstable, fickle. Careless. It's a wonder that any of them have been able to accomplish anything of value, given that.

[notrueking.livejournal.com]

Formerly. I haven't been human for a long time, though.

I've noticed the opposite-they care too much, even when they shouldn't.

[systmadmin.livejournal.com]

Formerly? [There's a shade of curiousity in his tone.] How did that happen? What are you now?

Yes. [Then a thoughtful pause.] Sometimes they care too much about the wrong things, to the detriment of others.

forgive me if this doubleposts, lj is being a butt (as you have already noticed)

[notrueking.livejournal.com]

I'm not sure if this would mean anything to you, but I am a Homunculus-an artificial human. Generally, Homunculi are created directly from a legendary substance known as the Philosopher's Stone, but I was created by having it injected into my veins.

Or themselves.

[systmadmin.livejournal.com]

I'm not familiar with the terms, no. But that is fascinating. What were the circumstances surrounding that?

[notrueking.livejournal.com]

I was picked up shortly after I was born and raised as a candidate to undergo the procedure and become the Fuhrer of my country. I was the first to survive, and it wasn't really a procedure that could be repeated.

[systmadmin.livejournal.com]

A dangerous procedure, then. How did this injection make you different from a normal human?

[notrueking.livejournal.com]

It elevated my abilities beyond what a normal human would be capable of-my eyesight went from being merely good to being phenomenal, and I gained the ability to react to things based on the subtlest visual clues.

...of course, I'm also angry all the time now, so it's something of a mixed bag.

[systmadmin.livejournal.com]

Interesting.

Is constant anger a side-effect of it?